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  LITTLE WHITE LIES

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  CHASING BLUE

  BEHIND THE BIT

  TRIPLE FAULT

  BEST ENEMIES

  CANTERWOOD CREST

  LITTLE WHITE LIES

  JESSICA BURKHART

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  This book is a work of fiction. Any references to historical events, real people, or real locales are used fictitiously. Other names, characters, places, and incidents are the product of the author’s imagination, and any resemblance to actual events or locales or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

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  Library of Congress Control Number 2009937541

  ISBN 978-4169-9038-3

  ISBN 978-1-4169-9831-0 (eBook)

  Little White Lies

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  Chapter 1: You Call this a Welcome?

  Chapter 2: Every Girl for Herself

  Chapter 3: And in One Corner We Have …

  Chapter 4: Hello, Eighth Grade!

  Chapter 5: Lesson One

  Chapter 6: Stalker, Much?

  Chapter 7: Sasha Starbucks

  Chapter 8: Birthday Girl

  Chapter 9: Don’t Make Me Slap You

  Chapter 10: Enter Jacob, Stage Right

  Chapter 11: What Quiz

  Chapter 12: Sparkle Free

  Chapter 13: Basically, I Haven’t been Nauseous for a Week

  Chapter 14: Make A Decision, Already!

  Chapter 15: Courtyard Ghosts

  Chapter 16: Stage Fright

  Chapter 17: Can You Say “Paranoid”?

  Chapter 18: Define “Trust”

  Chapter 19: Admit What?

  Chapter 20: Just Give Me Something

  Chapter 21: Girl Talk

  Chapter 22: Wise Advice from a Liar

  Chapter 23: ¿Habla Español? Apparently Not

  Chapter 24: And the Gold Medal Goes to …

  Chapter 25: Just One Wish

  Chapter 26: I Can’t Stay Away from You

  Chapter 27: No Going Back

  About the Author

  To the photo shoot crew—

  Jessica Handelman, Karin Paprocki,

  Russell Gordon, Monica Stevenson, and her assistants;

  Kate Angelella; and the Canterwood models.

  Thank you for creating this gorgeous cover!

  ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

  Kate Angelella, you’re a supertalented editor who makes every book better than I even imagined it could be. And I’m not saying that just because we did this book’s edit letter over manis and pedis. Nope.

  Alyssa Henkin, thank you for working hard on all things Canterwood.

  Thanks doesn’t begin to cover it to the amazing team at Simon & Schuster. Thank you, Mara Anastas, Fiona Simpson, and Bethany Buck for backing Canterwood. Thanks to Bess Braswell, Lucille Rettino, and Venessa Williams for their marketing genius. Nicole Russo, I still feel superimportant when I tell people you’re my publicist. Thank you to Brenna Franzitta, production editor extraordinaire. Thanks to Jessica Handelman, Russell Gordon, Monica Stevenson, and the models.

  Thanks to my friends who have welcomed me to the city, especially Aly Heller and Liesa Abrams. Mandy Morgan, come visit already! Lauren Barnholdt, “Team Barnhart,” FTW!

  Ross, you’re the coolest guy I know and just thinking about our neighborhood adventures makes me smile.

  Kate, a better BFF doesn’t exist. Life would be so sparklefree without you. LYSMB!

  Finally, to the reader girlies who chat on the forums, e-mail me, send pics, and create videos—I heart you all! Team Canterwood!

  LITTLE WHITE LIES

  1

  YOU CALL THIS A WELCOME?

  I’D BEEN BACK ON THE CANTERWOOD CREST Academy campus for an hour and I already felt trapped. Not a feeling I’d imagined experiencing on my first day of eighth grade.

  But it was true. If I left my dorm, I could get caught between Jacob—my ex–almost-boyfriend who suddenly wanted me back—and Eric—my amazing boyfriend who still didn’t know that Jacob had confessed his feelings to me the day before summer break.

  I sat at the edge of my still-unmade bed and took a deep breath, wanting to stay in the safety of my room. I wished my BFF and roommate, Paige Parker, would hurry through her parental good-byes. I needed girl advice stat!

  I considered the possibilities:

  Out There—I might run into Jacob. That was not good. But I also wanted to see Eric, and with the “no boys allowed in Winchester Hall—ever!” rule, running into him here was highly unlikely. Unless he wanted to risk death by Livvie, my dorm monitor.

  Plus, even though I didn’t want to leave, I kind of had to. My riding coach, Mr. Conner, was holding a team meeting at the stable in half an hour. I couldn’t risk being late—it was the first meeting for the Youth Equestrian National Team. After spending most of my summer riding at YENT camp, there was no way I could be late to the first meeting.

  I stepped around my matching pink suitcases and checked my reflection in the full-length mirror, wanting to look pretty but casual when I saw Eric for the first time since before summer vacay. I ran my fingers through my light brown hair and flicked a stray eyelash off my cheek. A coat of Cherry Blossom gloss was all I needed—it was so hot outside that any more makeup would run.

  I peeled off the wrinkled shirt I’d worn on the two-hour drive from home and pulled a new one from my open suitcase. The cotton-candy pink “I New York” baby tee looked cute with my jean skirt. I’d gotten the T-shirt when I spent a couple of weeks this summer in NYC with Paige.

  I smiled as I looked around our room—glad that we’d gotten approval to be roommates again in our familiar seventh-grade dorm room. Despite my worry about running into Jacob, I was beginning to feel better about being here.

  Going 2 the stbl 4 mtg. U? I texted Eric.

  I pulled on my paddock boots and glanced at my laptop. Just one quick check for any school announcements, I told myself.

  Zero new messages.

  The mouse hovered over my “save these!!” folder. After a moment’s hesitation, I clicked on the message I’d been staring at all summer long. From: Jacob Schwartz. Subject: Sasha, please read. 6/27. 7:46 p.m.

  There was no reason to open that e-mail. None. I should have deleted it the
second I’d gotten it this summer. After all, I had a boyfriend. Only horrible girlfriends saved e-mails from other guys—especially other guys currently dating their BFFs. What was wrong with me? But instead of erasing the message, I opened it and read it for the thousandth time.

  Sasha,

  I had to try again to tell you how sorry I am for the way I acted at the Sweetheart Soirée. I know you’re with Eric and I’m dating Callie, but I can’t give up. Not when I still like you so much. You know I don’t want to hurt Callie and I’m sure you feel the same about Eric, but you can’t ignore the truth—there’s something between us. I hope you e-mail or text me back or something. If not, I’ll see you at school. Have a great time at YENT camp.

  —Jacob

  Not that I’d needed to read the e-mail again to know what it said. I’d had it for three months and now every single word had become stuck in my brain. Just like the look on his face when he’d found me in the courtyard minutes before I’d left to go home last year—the first time he’d told me he wanted me back. I’d run from him then, not answering, and hadn’t replied to any of his messages all summer.

  My phone buzzed and I jumped. With shaky fingers, I grabbed my phone.

  BRT! Can’t wait 2 c u.

  Eric. He was the guy I wanted, not Jacob. Just thinking about seeing Eric after a summer apart made me grin. I couldn’t wait to see his creamy coffee-brown skin and his thick, dark hair that sometimes fell in front of his eyes.

  Jacob would have to figure out how to deal.

  I shut down the computer and left the dorm, hurrying down the glossy wooden floors of the hallway and stepping around luggage that was stacked outside dorm room doors. Eric was waiting for me. What happened with Jacob—his confession, the e-mail—none of it mattered. Eric and I were happy together. Jacob was too late.

  2

  EVERY GIRL FOR HERSELF

  I LEFT WINCHESTER AND WALKED DOWN THE sidewalk, enjoying the sun and warm late-August air. The campus was much calmer this weekend than it had been this time last year. The newbies had moved in yesterday and returning students were arriving over the weekend. As I looked around, I realized just how much I’d missed Canterwood over the summer. I tried to take in every bit of campus as I walked.

  Full oak and maple trees shaded the freshly painted wooden benches that dotted the pristine lawn. Black, old-fashioned streetlamps lined the sidewalks that snaked around the state-of-the-art dorms, gym, media center, pool, tennis courts, and stable. A stone wall covered in ivy encircled most of campus.

  I hurried down the sloping hill and walked into the stable, scanning the main aisle for Eric. Bay, chestnut, gray, and roan horses filled every available pair of crossties and glossy tack trunks with brass locks were lined up in front of the stalls. I walked through the center of the stable, passed the hot walker, and grinned.

  Eric stood in the aisle, looking beyond adorable in a red T-shirt with a frayed hem and cargo shorts. His light brown skin had darkened over the summer and I thought he maybe even looked taller.

  “Eric!” I called.

  He turned his head. “Hey!”

  I didn’t care if Mr. Conner caught me running in the stable and made me muck out stalls till I was twenty—I darted forward and threw myself into Eric’s arms. We hugged each other and I squeezed him hard, not wanting to let go. We pulled back. I couldn’t stop looking at him. Everything about him was familiar—the way he smelled like spearmint and dryer sheets, his easy, laid-back smile, and the way I fit into his body when we hugged.

  “Missed you,” he said, his dark brown eyes locked on mine.

  “Me too.”

  Eric leaned in to kiss me and, for a second, I hesitated. You’re just nervous, I told myself. You haven’t kissed him in months! It’s not like someone can forget how to kiss over the summer. I closed my eyes and brushed my lips against his. We smiled at each other.

  “I’m glad to see you,” Eric said. “But was starting school a week early part of the evil plan to eventually make school last all year?”

  I laughed. “Knowing the headmistress, probably. But at least fall break isn’t too far off this year.”

  Eric squeezed my hand. “True. And that’s only a week long. Not like spending all summer apart. Seven days is much better.”

  “Agreed.” I blushed and looked into the stall in front of us. Inside was Luna, the school horse Eric usually rode.

  “She looks great,” I said. The flea-bitten gray mare bumped Eric’s elbow playfully with her muzzle. She had a total crush on him.

  Eric rubbed her forehead. “I really missed her this summer. I’m going to groom her, and then go meet Troy for pizza at The Slice.”

  “And I better get to my meeting. Text you later?”

  I tossed a final smile over my shoulder at Eric. He grinned back and I felt his eyes on me as I walked away. The nerves about being around him would go away—I knew I just needed time after being separated all summer.

  I left Eric and walked to the skybox. When I got there, Heather Fox and Jasmine King were already waiting. Both girls sat at opposite ends of the room with their arms folded. The leader of the Trio and the transfer from Wellington Preparatory had a long history of hating each other. For years, they’d competed against each other with both girls battling for first place in every big show on the toughest circuit. Now that Jasmine was at Canterwood, Heather had stepped up her game—something I hadn’t even known was possible.

  Heather’s blond hair was in a messy French braid and her skin bronzed from a summer in the sun. She looked over at me and half-smiled. For Heather, that counted as superfriendly.

  Jasmine’s dark hair tumbled in loose waves around her shoulders and she focused her eyes on me. Unlike Heather’s, Jas’s skin was pale and peachy blush highlighted her cheekbones.

  “Your letter get lost in the mail?” Jas asked, smoothing her ruffled black skirt.

  I sat next to Heather and looked six seats down to Jasmine. “What letter?”

  She rolled her eyes toward the ceiling. “The one from the YENT where they told you that your offer to join the team was revoked after—oh, yeah—they came to their senses and realized what a loser rider you are.”

  I sat back in my chair and blew out a breath. As if I’d expected this year with Jas to go any other way, especially after how she’d acted during YENT camp over the summer. She couldn’t deal with having me—a “loser” rider—at the ultra-exclusive camp for one of the most prestigious riding teams in the country. Jas hadn’t stopped going after me for one second during all six weeks of camp. And I’d been alone.

  But that, I reminded myself, was my fault. Callie Harper, my other BFF and former riding teammate, wasn’t on the YENT because of me. Jacob had been acting weird for weeks before YENT testing last spring and Callie had obsessed about what was going on with him. Neither of us knew that it had been because Jacob wanted me back. Callie’s riding had been off on test day and it had cost her a spot on the YENT. Callie still didn’t know the truth—and as long as I had it my way, she never would.

  Mr. Conner strode into the room. “Welcome back, girls,” he said. His dark hair had been cropped shorter over the summer and he wore a hunter green polo shirt with CCA stitched in gold thread over his heart.

  “Hi,” we all said.

  He eyed our seating choices, but didn’t comment. “I’m glad to see all of you back at school. I hope you’re ready to get started on Monday.”

  Heather and I glanced at each other. He’d been tough on us when we’d been riders on his advanced team—when Callie had been on our team—and there was no question that he’d be even tougher on us now.

  “Since you’re all riding for the Youth Equestrian National Team,” Mr. Conner continued, “your schedule will be different from last year’s.” He picked up a leather-bound binder, opened it, and consulted a page. “You will not have morning lessons.”

  “Yes!” Heather, Jasmine, and I all whispered at the same time.

  Mr. Conner t
ilted his head, looking at us.

  Oops.

  But he grinned and we all started laughing. No morning lessons meant I could actually sleep in a little and not rush to shower, change, and get dressed before class every morning.

  “Don’t get too excited. Your afternoon class will be longer and more intense,” Mr. Conner said. “To accommodate this schedule, I’ve hired an assistant coach to teach the beginning riders. Ms. Walker starts on Monday. Please welcome her when you see her around. Also, I will have to submit written progress reports directly to Mr. Nicholson every other week.”

  So if I had a bad practice, would that go in my progress report? Gulp. Charm and I had to be on every day. I never wanted Mr. Nicholson to think he’d made a mistake in choosing me for the advanced team. Especially after my riding hadn’t been up to my usual standards at YENT camp.

  Mr. Conner flipped to a different page in his binder. “As the head scout of the YENT, Mr. Nicholson expects written reports as well as visual proof that you are all progressing in the program.”

  “Will he come from Lexington to watch us ride?” Heather asked.

  “No,” Mr. Conner said. “Each month, I’ll record a lesson and e-mail him the file. He’ll watch it and make notes about each of you. Since this is the first time Canterwood has had the honor of students riding for the YENT, we will all make sure to represent Canterwood Crest Academy’s riding team to the best of our abilities.”

  Talk about pressure …

  Jasmine raised her hand and her silver bangles clattered down her arm. “Mr. Conner?”

  He nodded at her. “Yes?”

  “When’s our first show?” Jas asked.

  “The first few weeks will be about settling into the new schedule and practicing,” Mr. Conner said. “We will not begin the fall show schedule until later in the semester—not until every rider is prepared and at her best.”

  A look crossed Jasmine’s face as if she wanted to argue, but instead she slumped into her seat, not saying another word. But I was relieved. I needed any extra practice I could get—Charm and I were going to prove ourselves to Mr. Conner and Mr. Nicholson.